Dear Colin,
First, I wish to ask your forgiveness for how late these payments are getting to you. I know of the dependency of a ministry on regular donations and am so sorry for the delay with ours…I can’t tell you how my heart leapt at the news of your show going from 15 to 30 minutes…I feel like I’ve heard more truth about God since I began listening to you than I’ve heard since becoming a Christian seven years ago. I continually find myself saying, “Of course,” and “Yes!” as I listen to you teach about our Lord and His unconditional love.
I must tell you that I absolutely loved your scripture readings during Christmas week. What an experience, hearing the Scriptures brought to life in such a dynamic way. As I listened I could picture the story of Joseph clearly in my mind. Everything that happened was brought to life and made real. What a beautiful and moving gift you shared with us. It was also a joy to hear the music included with the readings. I can only guess that this had to be some of your favorite music. I know many pieces were some of my favorite music. I hope this becomes a yearly tradition. Thank you for such a touching gift…
I’ve been wanting to apologize for speaking at the October 31st [seminar]. I think I came across as some kind of nut! I’m really not the kind of person who goes out “looking” for Satan in their life. I do know people like that: there’s always something demonic going on around them. I’ve had people offer to come and pray in the building I work at and to anoint the building with oil. (Just to remind you that I’m the one who works in the building that has some kind of evil presence in it.) I tell them it isn’t necessary since I know this “presence” cannot separate me from my Father. I praise Him for the job, especially since being there has brought me closer to Him. All of this came about through your teaching though, and I just can’t thank you enough.
There was a time, when I was so paralyzed with fear that I physically could not walk up the stairs. Now there’s nothing to fear. I praise the Father for Who He is and what He’s done for me. Even when the lights in one section turned off without anyone else being in the building or when I got hit in the back with a screw in a bathroom where I was alone and there wasn’t anywhere it could have fallen from, even then, I just began praising God for having a hold of me, for being in control and for having already defeated Satan.
Your teaching has brought that point out so clearly and made it real. I know many people who are constantly rebuking Satan and begging God to help them keep him at bay, if you will. That’s what I was taught since becoming a Christian. We’re in this constant battle with Satan and he’s going to “get us” if we don’t pray hard enough or stand firm enough in God. I always felt like everyone else was able to stand against Satan—they had the formula and I didn’t.
Then I heard your show and truth opened my eyes and my heart. Since I was 13 years old and The Exorcist came out, I was always terrified of Satan. I thought he would “get me”. I’ve had two actual encounters where I’ve experienced the physical (for lack of a better term) presence of Satan—once when I first became a Christian and then again in the building I work in. And with your help, I finally came to understand that I don’t have to go to battle with Satan. God did that already. Jesus accomplished that feat for me. I also came to KNOW that Satan couldn’t “get me”. I’m already spoken for as a daughter of the King. I also came to understand that my anger, arguments, etc., aren’t with Satan; they are with God. Your teachings of Jacob and his wrestling with the Lord enlightened me more than I can tell you. After hearing those messages, I went to the mat with the Lord about so many things. It just poured out of me. Finally, I was being honest with Him about resentments and blame I had felt for years. After venting and venting, I felt such a release; a freedom I can’t explain, and eventually emptied out everything I could think of. Suddenly, I found myself in complete silence, with nothing left to say. It was then that I heard that voice inside say to me, “Finally”, and I felt the Lord smile at me. That may sound odd, but I really did hear Him say, “Finally”, and I really know He smiled. I knew “freedom” for the first time in my life. I know God as my Father, my Dad, for the first time in my life. I was open and honest with Him for the first time in my life. After all, if I can’t go to my Father and be honest, especially since He knows anyway, then who can I be honest with?
Sometimes I find myself reverting back to “old Christian habits” but there’s always emptiness in going through the motions of Christianity and prayer. I constantly remind myself to praise God and just talk to Him, just be honest. Anyway, I meant for this to…apologize for sounding so goofy when I spoke at your conference in October…What I wanted to impart was that our focus in every situation needs to be God and that we praise Him in everything—especially that there isn’t anything that can separate us from Him.
G.H.
This is great! And you didn’t sound goofy! —Colin