Thanks so much for your last four tapes—about dying to the law. I learned so much from them—even the reading from Luther. For so many years, counselors had me read “thou shalt not” verses over and over again. I already knew what the verses said—but nothing ever changed my life. Oh, that I had heard these tapes decades ago. Yes, we need to know what the law says—but need to be pointed to Christ and his righteousness for any real reformation. Thanks again for the wisdom God continues to channel through your ministry.
Please find enclosed my monthly donations for 2002—and a $20 bill for the “Colin Carrot Juice Fund”—just for you…
I fear that things will never be the same again after September 11th. Perhaps the trumpet will sound soon. Keep your ears open and your eyes lifted upward. Our Lord may return soon! That is my prayer each day. In Christ…
B.F.
After twenty-two years of ministry I’ve never heard anything like it [FaithQuest’s faith-training radio program for recovery from homosexuality, heterosexual addiction and all human bondage, How It Happens, airing on Denver’s KLT, AM 670 weeknights at 10 p.m. and 4 a.m., and Radio 74, Geneva Switzerland at 11 p.m., weeknights]. God bless you.
G.F.
Now that I welcome Christ’s Presence in my fantasy my compulsion is greatly (if not entirely) dissipated. Fantasy is no longer secret for me. Because it is no longer secret, I ask Jesus why these cruel desires give me initial pleasure before they fill my heart with despair. If I continue fantasizing in spite of the lack of compulsion I can feel the endorphin release objectively. I can calmly decide not to continue. My fear is gone. My despair is gone. When I fail to stop and experience the endorphin rush I grieve my loss of sobriety. For at that time my addiction is fed, regardless of my behavior after the rush. But now my failures are less frequent and less traumatic. Yet my hope and expectation of His victory in the future has never been stronger. I’m no longer searching for that irrational magic bullet to keep me sober when I really want to enjoy depravity. Just knowing He is with me regardless of my sin replaces the fear of offending Him with the desire to please Him. In my recovery group and in this letter I do not mention the exact nature of my fantasy addiction. I do not believe it is a detail helpful to my own or other people’s recovery. If I did I would share it. In addition I don’t want to hear anyone else’s particular trigger for the same reason. But with Jesus, I divulge it and surrender it.
T.
I struggle with addictions, and it was really nice to hear on your show that there’s a reason for it, and that I can be helped. Whenever the feeling of lust came up, I didn’t know what to do with it. I felt bad. I didn’t know there was any help for me. I’m a Christian and I’ve been to Bible college and I felt really guilty whenever I had these evil thoughts. But now I know I can bring God into that experience with me so He can help me to walk out of that temptation and bring glory to God. I thank God for you allowing God to use you in such a powerful way. I know it is a hard subject to cover. Your ministry is very powerful.
S.J.
I happened to catch your show the last three nights. You were talking about sitting down and writing a letter to your Mom and Dad, or anyone who has hurt you. I know God has told me to do it before, and I’ve tried and I just can’t. Well today I sat down and I started doing it and I wanted to tell you, “Thank you” because a couple of years ago I was supporting your ministry but I hadn’t listened for a long time, and now I listened, and it was exactly what I needed to do, and I could just feel so much pain doing this…I’m hoping to get some counseling…
P.B.